My unbelief is an iceberg. The portion that is visible to me, I can take to the Lord and have him soften it, illuminate it, and transform it to belief.
But the revelation of my unbelief that is not known to my conscious mind is vast and far more expansive than I am even aware. Only through the Lord revealing this to me have I come to understand that deep within my heart and mind an enormous amount of unbelief frames my views and understanding.
And this is what is so difficult. I am not even aware of so much of my unbelief. It is both hidden from, but drives my consciousness.
And then there was the other groundbreaking insight given by the spirit regarding my unbelief.
It’s not that I am unbelieving, it is that I carry false beliefs. And the false beliefs create a distortion of my spiritual awareness that keeps me from believing.
So many of these false beliefs are kept from my awareness. Through out my life I have collected an iceberg’s size of false beliefs about myself, about others, about my life on this earth, about my abilities, about my false pride, about my religion, about God.
And this paints everything. My beliefs are the lens through which I see everything. It is how I process the world. And no matter how much false beliefs I carry, seeing through those false believes creates a false reality for me.
Over time we have accepted so many lies about ourselves, about others, about the gospel, and about God that we have absorbed them into our subconscious that is at its core, the self. These lies become who we are – the false self, and we literally live a lie.
To the degree we have absorbed and believed lies they have literally in-formed our self. Our self has taken the form of the lies we have accepted. And this is the core of our false beliefs.
Most of this life is perceived falsely for all of us. In fact, until we are fully redeemed and brought into a fullness of embrace of Christ will we see everything perfectly as it is. We see ourselves, God, and all truth as it is.
The Holy Ghost will teach us things as they really are preparatory for this Heavenly Gift.
So, so much of this life is discovering (having revealed to us) our false beliefs and having them changed. When these false beliefs are changed, we are prepared to come back into the presence of the Lord.
In its most fundamental sense repentance is mostly submitting our false beliefs back to the Lord so that we can see the truth and accept it, and have it become part of our being.
But if most of these false beliefs are not in my awareness how can I deal with them? How do I pull this iceberg out of the ocean and shine light on it?
The Lord will reveal them to us, if we ask. Perhaps this is what is meant by exercising mighty faith and mighty repentance.
It was mighty repentance that brought so many into the presence (rest) of the Lord.
10 Now, as I said concerning the holy order, or this high priesthood, there were many who were ordained and became high priests of God; and it was on account of their exceeding faith and repentance, and their righteousness before God, they choosing to repent and work righteousness rather than to perish;
11 Therefore they were called after this holy order, and were sanctified, and their garments were washed white through the blood of the Lamb.
12 Now they, after being sanctified by the Holy Ghost, having their garments made white, being pure and spotless before God, could not look upon sin save it were with abhorrence; and there were many, exceedingly great many, who were made pure and entered into the rest of the Lord their God.
13 And now, my brethren, I would that ye should humble yourselves before God, and bring forth fruit meet for repentance, that ye may also enter into that rest (Alma 13).
Humbling ourselves is a process of having our false beliefs revealed to us, and then allowing them to be transformed by the spirit.
This also illuminates the experience of the Brother of Jared. Moroni teaches so powerfully:
“Come unto me, O ye house of Israel, and it shall be made manifest unto you how great things the Father hath laid up for you, from the foundation of the world; and it hath not come unto you, because of unbelief.
Behold, when ye shall rend that veil of unbelief which doth cause you to remain in your awful state of wickedness, and hardness of heart, and blindness of mind, then shall the great and marvelous things which have been hid up from the foundation of the world from you—yea, when ye shall call upon the Father in my name, with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, then shall ye know that the Father hath remembered the covenant which he made unto your fathers, O house of Israel” (Ether 4: 14-15).
Understanding that unbelief is really false belief, we learn that false beliefs are what keep us in a state of wickedness.
False beliefs are the reason why our hearts are hardened.
False beliefs blind our minds.
And if we can become divested of these false beliefs the Father can manifest himself to us and make all things known to us.
I know that for me personally, I must learn to exercise exceedingly great faith to have these false beliefs both revealed to me and redeemed.